A Voice in the Dark

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Mia and Pudding get a high-five from Elle Macdonald Wolcott (8), who Mia says "is such a naturally gifted horsewoman and rider. She keeps Pudding and I centered at shows. This picture was taken after she helped Pudding feel grounded at our qualifier for Festival of Champions. I have her to thank for a lot of my success! Her, Pudding, and I are barn fam."

By Melvin Cox

First generation American, daughter of a refugee, wheelchair user, advocate, assault survivor, unashamed. Mia Rodier-Dawallo is a Grade II, international Para Dressage competitor, a Persian-American, a survivor, and a rising star. 

In addition to being an instructor and a clinician for both Para and non Para Dressage riders, she is the 2021 USDF Grade 2 Reserve National Champion, a USEF Developing Athlete, ranked 4th in the FEI World Individual Ranking in her grade for Team USA, ranked 29th in the WORLD for grade II, and is a serious contender for the 2022 World Equestrian Games in Denmark, as well as the Festival of Champions this year. And she is well on her way to making her biggest dreams – of Olympic proportions – come true. 

Although Mia, a lifelong rider, has made it to where she is today, she is insistent on giving thanks to her amazing community of family, friends, and teammates (including those of the four-legged kind) at every step of the way. Her road to the Olympics has been a long one – paved with perseverance, overcoming obstacles, and exercising gratitude, patience, and perspective. 

Pudding and Mia working with Lisa Helmer (USEF Para Dressage Development Coach) at Los Angeles Equestrian Center

In 2013, Mia’s life changed forever when she survived a brutal assault. Mia is very open about her mental and physical health, and shares her experience of surviving assault saying, “People think that ‘surviving assault’ is just staying alive through being attacked, but the reality of the situation is that the real fighting for your life comes after. Fighting for your life after trauma comes in the form of living life through victim blaming, through coming to terms with your newly different and permanently disabled body, through learning to love yourself unconditionally, being patient with your brain while you struggle with brain fog, confusion, and fatigue, and being patient with your heart while you learn to manage the symptoms of your PTSD. This gave me a whole new perspective on life and gratitude. There were a few days where I wasn’t sure that I would live to see another day. But with a lot of work, I am thankful for every moment that I am alive. I am thankful, not only that I have a future, but that it has been made so bright by the people in my life. I have survived everything life has thrown at me to make it to exactly where I am meant to be, today.”

Outside of her dressage career, she has been an avid advocate for the intersectional rights of marginalized people, women, people of color (PoC), the disability community, and low income communities, amongst other causes. These causes are especially personal to her because she checks every box. As a child of an immigrant family, from a first generation American, Muslim and Baháʼí family, growing up in a post 9/11 world, life has been a slippery slope. She speaks, in length, about the triumphs and tribulations of what life is like for a young, brown girl, living in a country whose culture is so vastly different than that of the home she grew up in, to feel unseen; invisible, but still a threat. When you compound that with a stark lack of representation in popular culture, and the public eye as a whole, we have a serious diversity problem on our hands. When you grow up to realize that most of the representation of the people who look and talk and act like you, consists of terrorists and “Apu”- type caricatures, it’s no wonder there are so many close-minded, preconceived notions. As Jen Richards said, “There is a one word solution to media representation: more. Then, the occasional clumsy representation wouldn’t matter as much because it wouldn’t be all that there is.” We need more beautiful black and brown faces in places that have been historically white; namely, the equestrian world.

This brings us to dressage, and more specifically, para dressage. The “para” in para dressage is short for parallel, this is to signify equality between dressage and para dressage. However, although para dressage athletes pour their blood, sweat, and tears into this passion, para dressage still seems to be an unknown sport altogether to a majority of the world, especially when compared to the mainstream international popularity of dressage in general. It is hard to ignore the implication of implicit ableism that tinges the air in which the word “para” dares be uttered and dismissed. Mia goes on to state that, “With each layer of marginalization, it is almost like the world adds a weight to your back; this makes it so that you have to work twice as hard to get half as far as those who carry nothing on their back. This is the burden of PoC, this is the burden of immigrants, this is the burden of the disabled, this is the burden of women, this is the burden of those who don’t know where their next meal might come from.” This is very true of para dressage riders in general, but especially PoC and low income para dressage riders, such as Mia. 

Cato, a Grand Prix KWPN gelding owned by Patty Mayer, and Mia take a victory lap in front of Mia’s 2021 Adequan/USDF Grade II Reserve Champion Para Dressage Rider of the Year award.

But what is the solution in a sport that is prohibitively expensive to many, and invisible to even more? When there is no visibility, you are essentially training people to be unaware. Mia’s dreams and goals are to be the first ever PoC to compete for the United States in the Olympic and Paralympic Games in her sport. You heard that right, thus far, in this sport’s hundreds of years of history, there have been none. With just under a year until the World Equestrian Games in Denmark, and with a little under three years to go before the Olympic and Paralympic Games in Paris, she has big dreams and the talent to match. In steps Patty Mayer (Bailiwick House and Patty Mayer Dressage), Michel Assouline (Team USA Para Dressage Head Coach), Hope Hand (Paralympian and President of the United States Para Equestrian Association), and Laureen Johnson (Director of Para-Equestrian and Vaulting) to help make those dreams come true. 

As for Patty Mayer, she is the one who started it all. She has provided the training, networking, experience, and expertise to really catapult Mia’s career to full speed. Bailiwick House is where Mia began to form her string of champion horses, provided by the syndicate of amazing women made up of Patty, and her clients; notably, Lynn Scheck and Danielle MacDonald Wolcott. That string consists of Cato, the 14-year-old bay Grand Prix Dutch Warmblood gelding; Livingston, the 18h 8-year-old; and most ostentatious of all, Maddox, the 14-year-old Pinto Vanner with one blue eye and white feathers. Between the three of these promising horses, they possess the cunning, kindness, and determination of a whole herd, and then some! 

Through Patty, Mia had the honor of acquiring Jayden (aka “Pudding”), a 7-year-old KWPN gelding, whose big heart and charm is matched only by his skill, passion, and promise, Meo, and Leo. Meo (4) and Leo (5) are Dutch Warmbloods, and are full brothers who Mia and her husband, Matt, started themselves. These are the horses that will be taking Mia on her Team USA journey and making dreams come true. 

Pudding gets reassurance from his biggest cheerleader after a test at the Festival of Champions qualifier.

As for Assouline, Hand, and Johnson, they have completely revolutionized the sport via borrowed horse programs, networking, and programs that foster diversity and inclusivity. Recently, USEF and FEI updated their rules to include more room for expressing yourself when it comes to protesting injustice and being vocal about social justice issues, which Mia hopes will make more room for open discussions on issues like race and privilege, as well as create a safe(r) space for black and brown voices to be heard. Mia is well aware that discussions on inequality and disrupting the status quo can be uncomfortable after long periods of silence, but progress can feel uncomfortable and that is a good sign. Mia quotes Robin DiAngelo, author of one of her favorite books, White Fragility: Why It’s So Hard for White People to Talk About Racism, “For white people and systems who have just recently recognized their own complicity in America’s racist systems and are looking to “fix” that – it’s not going to happen overnight. It’s a little bit like saying ‘I want to be in shape tomorrow.’ This is going to be a process.” And in the wise words of Beyoncé, “It’s been said that racism is so American that when we protest racism, some assume we’re protesting America.” Wise words from wise women. Although there is still a lot of work to be done when it comes to diversity and inclusivity, Mia is confident that these recent shifts in policy and ideals are a wonderful change and a great start. This is what the face of progress looks like and Mia is confident this is only the beginning. 

Stay tuned as we follow Mia’s journey to Festival of Champions, Denmark, Paris, and beyond! She is currently on her way to a WEG qualifier with Pudding and Cato – good luck!

It is easy to feel invisible when you don’t fit the mold, and it is even easier to feel erased when your sport, your struggle, and your generational trauma is invisible too. But Mia speaks fondly about words of wisdom she has received from her “Baba” through actions and the wise words of Rumi, her favorite being, “تو با بال به دنیا آمدی. شما هرگز در زندگی نخواهید خزید.” “You were born with wings. You will never crawl through life.” 

Even though she may have had to work twice as hard in life when compared to her more privileged peers, this has taught her to be a fighter. We have no doubt that she will excel at all of her goals and endeavors to come, continue to overcome each obstacle with grace, and continue to serve as a role model for all young girls of color when we see her face at Lamplight in 2022, and in Denmark 2022/Paris 2024/LA 2028 representing her country amongst the best and brightest.

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